Eleven days ago my life changed in a way I can’t fully appreciate yet.  I became a mother via adoption.

I stood in the OB operating room and watched as a dear friend delivered her daughter and my daughter.  A squirming, beautiful, and instantly loved baby girl came forth.

And I wept.

And MH wept.

Tears of joy mingled with tears of pain.

Adoption always includes both.

We named her Jubilee Mila.

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Jubilee: a celebration honoring God and that all belongs to Him; done every seven sevens of years; our seventh child; born seven years after the previous; in the actual year of Jubilee.

Mila: a nod to a connection between me and MH; her favorite book that she “made” me read years and years ago and which I have never forgotten (Mila 18)

Jubilee Mila is stunning.  She is in the NICU.  And when I say she, I mean we. And when I say we, I mean me and her.

She was having some breathing issues, but those have resolved.  Now the main concern… so much so that they are estimating a month stay…, is eating.  Her muscles don’t have the stamina to eat well.

This is common in babies with Down syndrome.  But it’s not common in my life and so I have struggled with my emotions.

I am doing better, but it’s a dance.

I am encouraged though because when she has the strength and energy to nurse, she latches well.  And I am making milk!! Enough to mostly feed her!

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So, we will do this dance, stepping towards home and having our family  together. Trusting God as we have these six years and especially these last nine months.

MH goes home tomorrow and that will be crazy emotional for us both.  Please keep praying for her.  She has done amazingly, but she has a rough few weeks ahead of her as she transitions.

She has signed, relinquishing her rights and her daughter into my and Paul’s arms.  {see the steps blog post to know what’s next}

So…Maybe Baby no more! It’s Jubilee Mila!

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Rejoice with us!!

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The countdown is real.  Baby Girl could arrive any day.  The estimated due date is August 15, but we know she will arrive before that because the doctors aren’t letting her go past her due date (risks associated with Down syndrome) and that day falls on a Saturday.  So, if she doesn’t arrive before the […]

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How the Last Steps of Our Private Adoption Work {our adoption story}

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How I’m Inducing Lactation for Baby Girl {our adoption journey}

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Yesterday I shared eight ways Paul and I persevered through the roughest season of our marriage.  It was a seriously difficult time in our married life, but we were both committed to staying the course in our covenant and we took actions to demonstrate that. It wasn’t easy.  It didn’t feel natural.  And it didn’t show any […]

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How to Handle Distant/Difficult Times in Marriage {part 1}

May 19, 2015

I absolutely love being married.  I won the jackpot when Paul chose to love me.  Seriously. Still, marriage is a challenge lots of the time and requires intentional work to keep the marriage thriving.  If couples ignore problems, hurts, or distance, then the marriage can greatly suffer and both parties can find themselves floundering.  All […]

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Packing for Holland, Planning for Italy: I Will be a Holland Tourist for a Bit {our adoption journey}

May 14, 2015

I bought this shirt for myself with birthday money yesterday.  I can’t wait to wear it.  I can’t wait to see Holland.    I have known about the Holland analogy of parenting since my time in special education classes in college.  I’ve never really lived it.  Yes, we foster parented Daniel for six years, but […]

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Why We Said No and then Yes to Chromosomal Testing in Pregnancy {our adoption journey}

May 12, 2015

Baby Girl is due in August and has Down syndrome.  How do we know?  Ultrasound markers led us to a blood test = unofficial diagnosis.  I have thought long and hard about why we have handled our tests the way we have.  And I want to share in hopes of encouraging other parents in similar situations. […]

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Yes, There is a K-12 Curriculum You Can Use with Your Entire Family and Not Spend a Fortune

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Would you like to save money homeschooling? Would you like to have your entire family, whether two kids or twenty, studying the same time period of history?  Would you like to have prepared lesson plans, review questions, and maps? Well… let me introduce you to a curriculum that does all of that and saved the […]

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Baby Girl is Fearfully & Wonderfully Made!

April 13, 2015

Oh, how I love Maybe Baby…. who shall now be referred to as Baby Girl here on the blog, since we found out ten days ago that she is a she.  Did you see the adorable photo? I love her and have since the birth mom (MH), sent me the very first sonogram photo. Baby Girl […]

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