The countdown is real.  Baby Girl could arrive any day.  The estimated due date is August 15, but we know she will arrive before that because the doctors aren’t letting her go past her due date (risks associated with Down syndrome) and that day falls on a Saturday.  So, if she doesn’t arrive before the 13tg, then she’ll be induced that day.  All that to say… oh my golly!!  She’s coming!!

After six years of waiting for another child, my excitement, joy, and anticipation is palpable. Just ask my family and local friends.

The second I see her, I just know I will melt.  The moment Paul and I hold her and look at each other…. well, it’s going to be just as magical as it has been six times previously we’ve fallen in love with our child.

With one difference.

We will keep her name and her face private for a few days.

Why Waiting for Name and Photos WEB

This won’t be easy for someone like me: a person who lives life out loud and seriously loves sharing with people, especially those who care so much.

But I love MH more.

So, since New Mexico gives her three days to be the mom before she can sign her relinquishment papers, I want to honor those three days by not sharing photos or announcing Baby Girl’s name.

Yes, I will get to nurse her and swaddle her… and beyond all awesomeness, Lord willing that she is fine during labor and delivery, I will get to do immediate skin to skin with her.

Yes, I will be caring for her from the get go.

Yes, I will be her mama in my heart and in MH’s heart.

But…. these will be the only days that MH is the mom, legally.  It just doesn’t feel right to share photos as a mom while MH is still the mom.  No matter who is doing the care giving.   MH will have some time alone with Baby Girl during those days.  It’s something they both deserve and need.  MH will speak with her privately and lovingly.

So, please know that I will announce on Facebook and Instagram that labor has started and that Baby Girl has been born.  I will also certainly share prayer requests, if they are needed (you are praying that she has little to no complications, right?). I will share my joy.

I just won’t publicly share Baby Girl as our daughter until she (mostly) is.

As a reminder, read this post about how everything should play out and the legal steps we must take to get to Baby Girl being completely ours, legally.

I want to thank you all for walking this journey with us, for caring for us, for being supportive of us.  All of us.  Your kind words, pms, and prayers are precious to us.  We don’t have much longer, but the hardest time is ahead.

I can’t even begin to describe the range of emotions and surreal experiences we are about to walk individually and as a set of long time friends.

One of us will become a mother for the first time and then will place her only child into the arms and family of the forever mom.

One of us will watch a friend give birth and then will be given the most amazing gift of a lifetime.

I seek the Spirit as we live our surreal life, but especially for the most difficult season of this journey.  Please don’t stop praying for us.

And… look for the day I can share Baby Girl’s face and name! 

How the Last Steps of Our Private Adoption Work {our adoption story}

July 21, 2015

I shared nine months ago about how our agency adoption works.  I wanted to help explain the process a bit more.  The steps are nearly the same, even though we are now on a private adoption path, with only weeks until our daughter’s birth. Still, I hadn’t realized how fuzzy all of this is to those […]

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How I’m Inducing Lactation for Baby Girl {our adoption journey}

July 19, 2015

We are about four weeks from estimated due date for Baby Girl.  I am seriously excited.  And distracted from all other tasks. It’s party hilarious how much so this is true and partly annoying.  Just like when I was pregnant with our other six kiddos.  Ahem. And just like our other six kiddos, I plan […]

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What to do in Difficult Time in a Marriage {part 2}

May 20, 2015

Yesterday I shared eight ways Paul and I persevered through the roughest season of our marriage.  It was a seriously difficult time in our married life, but we were both committed to staying the course in our covenant and we took actions to demonstrate that. It wasn’t easy.  It didn’t feel natural.  And it didn’t show any […]

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How to Handle Distant/Difficult Times in Marriage {part 1}

May 19, 2015

I absolutely love being married.  I won the jackpot when Paul chose to love me.  Seriously. Still, marriage is a challenge lots of the time and requires intentional work to keep the marriage thriving.  If couples ignore problems, hurts, or distance, then the marriage can greatly suffer and both parties can find themselves floundering.  All […]

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Packing for Holland, Planning for Italy: I Will be a Holland Tourist for a Bit {our adoption journey}

May 14, 2015

I bought this shirt for myself with birthday money yesterday.  I can’t wait to wear it.  I can’t wait to see Holland.    I have known about the Holland analogy of parenting since my time in special education classes in college.  I’ve never really lived it.  Yes, we foster parented Daniel for six years, but […]

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Why We Said No and then Yes to Chromosomal Testing in Pregnancy {our adoption journey}

May 12, 2015

Baby Girl is due in August and has Down syndrome.  How do we know?  Ultrasound markers led us to a blood test = unofficial diagnosis.  I have thought long and hard about why we have handled our tests the way we have.  And I want to share in hopes of encouraging other parents in similar situations. […]

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Yes, There is a K-12 Curriculum You Can Use with Your Entire Family and Not Spend a Fortune

April 29, 2015

Would you like to save money homeschooling? Would you like to have your entire family, whether two kids or twenty, studying the same time period of history?  Would you like to have prepared lesson plans, review questions, and maps? Well… let me introduce you to a curriculum that does all of that and saved the […]

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Baby Girl is Fearfully & Wonderfully Made!

April 13, 2015

Oh, how I love Maybe Baby…. who shall now be referred to as Baby Girl here on the blog, since we found out ten days ago that she is a she.  Did you see the adorable photo? I love her and have since the birth mom (MH), sent me the very first sonogram photo. Baby Girl […]

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One of My Homeschooling BFFs

April 8, 2015

There are some homeschool materials that I will grab if our house ever catches fire.  Today, I’m telling you about one.  It’s one of two BFFs in my homeschooling world. About seven years ago, I was drowning in math papers and time spent teaching math. Having four students in our homeschool, I needed some time […]

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